Normal but meaningfuL

what if u r not happy at the place u r currently working? will u jez resign n go to another place to work? or try to cheer urself up so that u can continue working at the place u r working currently? but when u think that u still have a car loan to pay off, the options to resign from the place u r currently working will drifted away for sure.Sigh!! that’s y so damn headache!! when u r headache, u will definitely asking why u grows up so fast!!! it’s better to be a kid 4eva….well human is alwiz unsatisfy with the current environment….complaints complaints complaint….sigh….just be urself bah!!!

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well this is the fourth day of the CNY lioa lu….sigh wat do i felt now? hmm well a wonderful start for me!! yeah!! kinda need that….i need some morale support here from all my frens to continue my meaningless life bah!!! having some difficulty to cope up wateva happened to me lately….!!! hmm guess need to treat it as a big big lesson to me!!! that;s y it changes me alot …from happy to sad, from sad to meaningless now!!!

trying to spice back up my life thou!!! need help from my frens to spice up my life now!!! sigh….wat a new year!!!!!

I have been so damn negative these few months!!!from NO to YES and now to NO again!!!everytime when i faced some problem i will be really really weak!!!i changed alot…from happy go lucky to sad and to happy again n to sad again NOW!!!what got into me? there is alwiz an option in our life and it is all how we chose it!!but…we are all good at tALking but when there is really a prob then we will choose to back off or choose to avoid!!!!

I know i cant said i am the worst person in this world because i know there are alot more little children or maybe ppl who is more unlucky than me….but at the moment, i am so damn confused and so damn sad now because i have faced somethg that i need to be faced alone…alwiz empty and alwiz alone….no1 knows about it!!!!i cant let my family to get to know about it and i cant really let some of my frens to know about it…which is the most suffering part.the most sufferring is when u cant let ppl know the reason why u r suffering and y u r so damn sad about!!!!tat;s y no1 will understand….sigh….wateva it is, it;s my choice….i made an option so i need to live with it or face…jez the matter of choice or i wanna face it or maybe avoid it by goin somewhere far far away!!!! stupid rite? naive rite? toonaive and toostupid to live on in this world with full of lies and cruelness!!!!

SO FACE it or LEAVE it!!!

i thought there will be sunshine for me after some rainy days…but i dunno there is a storm waiting for me…i tried not to be negative…but reality is always cruel!!!! guess i am too naive to live bah!!!i am too childish coz i alwiz have the thinking that ppl wont hurt ppl coz we r all living together in this world…so they wont be hurting us as we r human..but i was really wrong bah!!!!

i was being too naive to live in this cruel world…i dont know i can stand for how long now…coz i really too helpless and lonely now bah!!no frens around…wat a joke coz i have been living in this world for 23 years n now i am telling u all tat i dun even have a fren to be by my side when somethg happen to me? yup this is the truth bah….haha funny rite? i also think that is funny too…i alwiz asked myself whether i treat ppl badly til they dun wan to fren with me? nope…i alwiz treat them with my all heart but then maybe they all tot my request is too much bah…

guess i really too naive n too childish to live….sigh!!! well anyway wish all of u in this world.. all the best bah!!!….bye

I had a lot of 1st time in the past week…1st time admitted to the hospital, 1st time have an operation, 1st time put in the I.V, 1st time have 21 days for MC. 21 DAYS??? Gosh that was really really long!!!..

Guess i have grown up, coz no1 was with me when i was wheel in the operation room.no1 was there for me when i came out from the operation room….n no fear at all when i was being wheeled into the operation room…

=)!!!! jez feel so cool coz of all the 1st time in my life just in few days time…so wateva also can happen….guess we need to be ready for all the unexpected thg that would happen….

CooL!!!

after sushine, i guessed will be a rainy day too…!!! but then i belief that human have two choices in their life, it’s really depends on what did u chose, n how did u chose it!!! well i guess after u have chose it then better live with it or maybe cope with it…dont be regret or complaint because that is our own choice of life. correct? unless u r brave enough or has enough courage to tell yourself that you made a wrong choice….well if u really have enough courage then i guess you found your own self though….shuld cheers for yourself. cause i still havent found myself and my own life. I guess that wil be a long journey for myself. need to be tough though if not u will be down in any minute or any seconds.

I gone thru quite alot but i guessed maybe not enuff. sometime i know human do have ups n downs in their life but izzit necessary to pay that much jez to learn a lesson?hmmm better skip this question…i know this would be a never ending discussion though.better skip all the sad moment (yeah! i really wish i can do that though but sigh failed)….anyway really hope everyone in this world would have a good life n will know how to choose their options…=)

hmmm!!!i was thinking to put some picture in here but then i was like thinking better dont…because i am not pretty as u guys know…sigh…so it’s no use to put a picture though…no1 will ever put some comment to me though…hahaa…
well i hv been bz n tire bah…sigh!!!!everyone need to wake up early n then slept late….that day was on MC…but still i slept quite late…hmm well i made some decision…but then i dunno whether my decision is correct or wrong…sigh!!! i thinks only time can proves whether my decision is correct or wrong….
jez can said..GOD Bless ME!!!!
pls do!!! if not i think i will be dying lioa

Fuiii!!!! It’s been a week lioa….hmm been bz for a week but then i really scare later i will be very bz after these 2 weeks…been wondering what i will do later!!!hohoho…well life has been good…been happy for the whole week n include the whole weekend….

Anyway…i will try to post some picture when i got a new one….

There’s alwiz sunshine after a rainy days.Well guess that is  the most suitable phrase to describe my feeling right now!!!Previously i was like a dead fish but then now i think i managed to solve everythg…

Guess i hurted someone thru out my groom days.All i can tell her is Im really sorry!!!Hopefully i am old enuff now to solve all my problems now…so i wont be disturbing anyone from now on…guess u guys wont be hearing from me anymore though!!!haha…take k and hv a nice day everyone!!!

Well today im very happy n felt lucky…hmm finally somethg good happen to me lioa…well wish me all the best though..i will be very bz to update my blog lioa lu…hmm so maybe i wont be online much after today…hoho…so long everyone..!!